Bad feels so good.

What’s good? What’s bad? Is it really important to follow your beliefs?  Is God true?

I know what I believe, but sometimes I would like just to knock it off, live my life and don’t mind about the consequences, don’t give explanations, don’t care about the opinion of other people…my body wants some fun, but my mind says I can’t… my heart beats fast and I just want to  yell…I can feel  all the weight on me and I don’t know what to do.